Snape

Do I still have Snape thoughts?

Yes.

I may be occassionally lashing out. 

Telling the students, the occassional spliff is a good thing, particularly when your're pissed off.

Sometimes I tell them, life is shit and no body's ever going to give you your due so you might as well break windscreens and slash tyres.

This is the residue left from the whole bizarre experience.

My sensitisation to being a young man with too dark skin, has left me angry with no social context of my own.

Those memories are formed from that perspective and for better or worse will remain as they are. 

So... what to do with myself.... 

Tell the kids, drop some dead rats from the walkway over the highway and watch some cars go into the ditch.